What do you mean it is Wednesday?
Why is it suddenly July?
How are you even doing?

I feel like I’ve been lost in the weeds, now that the school year is over. And I’m surprised every day, surprised to wake up to a hungry cat, thrown off when I finally remember to eat dinner. Which is not supposed to be a chips and a protein bar. Thank goodness for salad kits.

So what has been my North Star? How do I approach each day with grace and intent? Here’s the honest truth, it’s difficult to find direction when you’re being pulled in multiple directions. So I have been clearing things out.

Like, I’m ready to throw books out. And that’s usually a moral dilemma for me. Clarity is coming in far sharper than it has ever been. Are there clothes that no longer fit? Good bye! Old textbooks that are no longer relevant? Thank you for your service. That long list of To Watch YouTube videos? That is running in the background as I work on other things.

I cannot carry all of these thoughts and things anymore. I don’t want to carry old and tired emotions from old and done stories. I want new, fresh thoughts and opportunities. Let the things that are worth keeping actually grow as I clear things out.

You know what has come back despite my insistence that I was going to pause? That dang fantasy book. I forgot that I am actually good at writing, and transferring page to screen has gotten the itch again. Oh did I complain that fantasy was feeling weird in this strange reality we’re in? I don’t know, maybe a royal going rogue to set things on fire and has to be chased by a weird collection of bickering men so confused by the weird politics left in their wake has some relevance.

Maybe it’s time to throw some kindling into the fire and see what it feels like to finally release something that’s been stored away too long. With this time ahead of me, I can finally finish a few projects and online classes. No one is making me a darn thing, and that is wonderful. After all, isn’t the greatest freedom the ability to make a choice?

Stay strong and stay tuned. And let fantasy decentralize the monarchy.